Ohaayo!!!

Whats up?  How is everybody? It's the start of summer vacation and I was almost being lazy today because my friends and I had a party at my house yesterday. ^^  It was hella fun!!! We stayed at my house for a while til two of my friends left at like 7pm.  Then later at 8pm we went bowling.  We played three games and it lasted til like 11pm. We did like singing contests, who did the best poses, and ask who is most talkative, shyest, smartest, etc. questions.  It was really fun.  We took bunches of pictures.  (lol)

But my happy moment came to an end when I got home.  All my sad feelings came back and started making me hate how certain people treat me.  Yeah...  I sometimes hate always have to take it like everythings okay like it's not bothering me at all, but it is.  Really hate how I put that act on.  I cried in the end which I felt better afterwards.  I sometimes wish I was never born, but then again I sometimes am happy that I was born because I got to meet such great friends.  I knew I was an unexpected child and I'm not sure if I was ever wanted or not.  Who knows right?  I just have to live my life to the fullest I guess.  Sometimes tired of being the optimistic, but it's better than being pesstimistic.  Can't let my self-confidence get low because it will be my fault if I take it too seriously.  If I don't then my self-confidence in myself will be a okay because I don't let things get to me.  Sometimes I do let them, but not that much which is a good thing I think.  (lol)

Anyways I'll be writing in this more often now maybe since it's summer vacation and I might have a lot of things to talk about.  Things might come up where I might want to express my feelings on here.  So, who knows. ^.^

~ShyAki~