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Monday, June 25, 2007

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 04:16:24 GMT

Hey!!!

What's up everybody? I finished reading my book last night ^^ Since I couldn't sleep. I was way too happy last night ^^ But the book was really really good!!! I can't wait for the second one to come out!!! ^^ Wonder if it's only two or more. Who knows, but I want the second one to come out already!!! ^^

I talked to my boyfriend last night on the phone. We talked for a half an hour-hour or so ^^ It was fun We never usually talk on the phone. We talk online most of the time. I didn't want him to waste text yeah know since I was sending him messages on my yahoo account instead. My boyfriend is evil. (lol) He's just like my brother in some ways for their evilness. >.< I say that's a bad thing that they have in common. >.< (lol) My boyfriend said I was evil. I was only evil to him ^^ Think that's why he says he is evil because of me and that it's in his blood. (lol) I say pft. I ended up hanging up on him since he said that I wouldn't. He texted me in the end saying meanie. I just sent a text back smiling. (lol) Later told him I didn't want to talk to him and we left it at that. (lol) Plus he had church tomorrow so he probably went to bed. Who knows. *shrugs*

I'm happy It's only because of my boyfriend even though he is a baka, but I still love him. ^^ It doesn't take much to make me happy. However to keep me awake from being happy is hard. (lol) Just need the right person ^^ That was my boyfriend. (lol) My friends could too if they knew what made me that way.

Anyways time to read my book or watch TV. ^^ Bye Bye!!! Sleep dreams

~ShyAki~

Monday, June 18, 2007

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 03:21:26 GMT

Ohaayo!!!

How is everybody? Today is father's day ^^ Any of you guys get your father's something? Me, my siblings and I had treated my father out to eat yesterday because we knew he would be busy today. However, at home we made wonton and noodles to go with it. ^^ yup ^^ Yummie food ^^ (lol)

Have you ever felt out of place with the people you love that are close to you? *sigh* One minute you can be happy with them where it helps you forget all the bad things that are going on in your life, but later they make you feel invisible like you were never there... Ever get that feeling? When that happens, I feel like I don't know who I am anymore when I'm with them. Maybe I am out of place or maybe I just don't know where I belong... Feels like my world is crumbling around me all over again. *sigh* Feel like I don't know the people around me. I barely know anything about my boyfriend when I think about it. The others...I'm not really sure...

Anyways... Happy Father's Day Everybody!!!! Hope you guys had a fun day today with your guys dad.

~ShyAki~

Friday, June 15, 2007

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 05:33:42 GMT

Ohaayo!!!!

How is everybody? Me, I'm tired and upset a bit. (lol) But I'm not going to let it get to me ^^ (hehe)

My boyfriend has his last day of finals tomorrow I think. I hope does okay . Wished him good luck before he signed off to study some more. I wonder how it would feel to see him after such a long time you know? Long distance relationships are never easy for people who are in highschool. Since you never know if they are cheating on you or not. Luckily I can have his sis tell me or she'll just tell me since her brother bugs her sometimes. (lol) My boyfriend is a dork and an idiot, but I still love him. I don't know how months its been so far. I know we dated for a year just don't know how many months. I kind of lost track and totally forgot the day we went out all of a sudden. I know its like in the beginning of september on a wednesday. That's all I remember really. Just have to look at the calendar and remember. It was in 2005 when we started dating, I think... Hm...Yeah it was in 2005 when we started because I graduated middle school in 2006 and I was in the eighth grade when I started dating him. (hehe) I forget things easily at times. Now I just have to look at my calendar if I put it on there when my boyfriend and I started to date. But I think he forgot too maybe. (lol) He's the same as me. We both forget things easily. However he is in some AP classes so I'm stupid in that section. (lol)

OOOOO!!!!!!! I've been reading an interesting book lately. ^^ I'm actually taking my time reading it. I really like it and I would've finished it by now, but whatever. I want to take my time and imagine myself there and enjoy the book. ^^ I might get the second one if it is out already or when it does come out. ^^ Awesome book!!! Apparently if you like Harry Potter books you will like this. I know I do. I need to get back to Harry Potter. Start reading the fourth book again. Never did get far, just stopped reading it and went on to other books I guess. That usually happens to me if I find something more interesting to me. The Harry Potter series are good, but I still like other books more than it. I also have two other books I'll be reading later. ^^ I know Amy Tan's book will be awesome when I read it next! ^^ I love her books!!! I guess this is what you get when your bored over the summer and just read books like crazy. (lol) Then again I do love reading so I don't mind. (lol)

Anyways going to get some sleep. Kind of tired and want to read some more of my book tomorrow since I already read a lot today and don't finish it too soon. Night Night people!!! ^^

~ShyAki~

Sunday, June 10, 2007

Sun, 10 Jun 2007 04:26:22 GMT

Ohaayo!!!

Whats up? How is everybody? It's the start of summer vacation and I was almost being lazy today because my friends and I had a party at my house yesterday. ^^ It was hella fun!!! We stayed at my house for a while til two of my friends left at like 7pm. Then later at 8pm we went bowling. We played three games and it lasted til like 11pm. We did like singing contests, who did the best poses, and ask who is most talkative, shyest, smartest, etc. questions. It was really fun. We took bunches of pictures. (lol)

But my happy moment came to an end when I got home. All my sad feelings came back and started making me hate how certain people treat me. Yeah... I sometimes hate always have to take it like everythings okay like it's not bothering me at all, but it is. Really hate how I put that act on. I cried in the end which I felt better afterwards. I sometimes wish I was never born, but then again I sometimes am happy that I was born because I got to meet such great friends. I knew I was an unexpected child and I'm not sure if I was ever wanted or not. Who knows right? I just have to live my life to the fullest I guess. Sometimes tired of being the optimistic, but it's better than being pesstimistic. Can't let my self-confidence get low because it will be my fault if I take it too seriously. If I don't then my self-confidence in myself will be a okay because I don't let things get to me. Sometimes I do let them, but not that much which is a good thing I think. (lol)

Anyways I'll be writing in this more often now maybe since it's summer vacation and I might have a lot of things to talk about. Things might come up where I might want to express my feelings on here. So, who knows. ^.^

~ShyAki~

Monday, April 16, 2007

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 12:49:37 GMT

Ohaayo....

I'm dead tired. I felt like I barely got any sleep and would totally fall back asleep right now. I went to bed about 10pm, but couldn't fall asleep til like thirty minutes later. After that I woke up around midnight or a little bit earlier, I kept waking up every 5-15minutes. My mind was totally thinking about my boyfriend and I was worried. That's probably why I didn't get enough sleep and other things going around in the house. I'm not cut out for this bunch of stuff right now. I'm trying not to cuss, but yeah. So, I'm dead tired and today is the day I go back to school. Isn't this a great way to start off the day? NOT! Anyways I got to go get ready and such. Bye Bye!

~TiredAki~

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 04:31:08 GMT

Hey!!!

Whats up everybody? I've been doing okay except I haven't been able to talk to my boyfriend alone. It's always a three person conversation going on. There is me, my boyfriend, and his best friend. I just wish I could talk to him alone at times, but that never happens. *sigh* Just wish I could. I want to tell his friend to like leave, but I don't want to be rude or anything. >< I was talking to his sister last night. (lol) She was talking about how her brother is an idiot and that I'm cool because I'm tough? Weird huh? (lol) I don't find myself tough, but ok. (lol) I haven't been talking to my boyfriend that much lately when we do he is talking about world of warcraft because he is addicted to it. *sigh* This is what I get for having a boyfriend that is a WoW freak. *shakes head in disappointment* Hm...but he does have some good points about him. (lol) Especially when he says sweet things which makes me happy. ^^ I know I will never have to change because he says he loves me the way I am and that I'm perfect the way I am. ^^ So, yup. Well nothing more to say. Bye Bye~

~Aki~

Monday, April 09, 2007

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 03:43:11 GMT

Hey Everybody!

Whats up? I'm feeling much better today than I did yesterday. I didn't get to talk to my boyfriend, but I did remember what he said about family. He just always know what to say to make me feel better. ^^ That's why I love him so much. Don't know he's been. Only spoke to him like a few days ago. But his best friend is mostly on his screenname so I mostly talking to him instead of my boyfriend. *sigh* I do miss my boyfriend right now because I want to tell him some things. I know how he hates it when I don't tell him anything like if I'm feeling sad or when I bottle everything up. So, I plan on telling him everything well not everything. Only some because others at times I just can't tell him. Anyways nothing more to say. Bye Bye!!! Take care everyone!

~Aki~

Sunday, April 08, 2007

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 03:00:27 GMT

Ugh...I totally hate my family right now!!! Mainly my parents and brother -_- My sister isnt around for all the shit I put up with. Telling me to raise my D- up and if i dnt im dead -_- I raised a D up before and who says I can't do it again. Ugh... Really hate my brother right now. -_- Seriously. Maybe I get my damn smart ass him from him since he always acts like he is -_- Hate him right now and parents. -_- Piss me off and make me want to cry. Make me feel like a damn failure that can't do anything right and that I was just a mistake that they didn't want!!! i swear!! hate them right now! argh!!! i just wish i could talk to my bf right now >< he just knws how to make me feel better like he did yesterday =( anyways nothing more to say bai bai

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 02:51:37 GMT

Hey!!!

How is everybody? I'm doing good finally!!! (lol)

My boyfriend is perfect well in my eyes anyways. ^^ He is patient, understanding, funny, etc. (lol) I just love everything about him. ^^ (hehe) We had this whole huge thing going on which I can't say, but it did make me cry from how he said things. However, he did make sense to me after I thought about it. (lol) He also understood when I didn't want to talk to him yet since I was going through something. He is just always there for me. My friends say I give him too many chances, but then again he gives me many chances too when we both screw up when we try not to. (lol) My other friends say him and I are perfect for each other. I say we are. I don't know who I would be without him. He made a huge impact on my life. Who I am now is what he made me into. I wouldn't be like this today; carefree and fun. I was always like quiet and mature which everybody expected me to be. He didn't. He just wanted me to be myself and got me out of my shell. Taught me how to be relax and just be immature when I want to be. ^^ I love my boyfriend and I hope we are together for a long time. I know I screwed up the first time, but I know I won't let him go now. He is bestest boyfriend ever and I love you, my Bakakun always and forever!!! ^^

I'm getting back into poetry sort of. I haven't been writing much since nothing comes to me anymore. Most times when I write when something is going on through my life or somebody elses life. I redoing my story Dear Journal. I screwed it up the first time. (lol) Saw a huge problem I had with it when I read over it since I did write it back in 8th grade where I didn't know anything. (lol) After having a CP English class, I knew I could write it a bit better than it was before. ^^ So, get ready to read the new version of it because I'm making a lot of changes to it and I mean A LOT!!!! (lol)

School is really really boring. Almost every Monday I fall asleep or sleep in my classes because I'm really tired. Maybe because it's just Monday. (lol) I have a composition due Friday. *cries* I've been packing my own lunch too!!! (hehe) Health class is starting to get even more boring than usually. Yesterday I almost wanted to fall asleep watching a video on ectasy both of them!!! My god! I tempted to take my ipod out and start listening to it, but then I would get in trouble. Journalism we are starting on a new project. Groups of three which sucks since I don't really know anybody in that class!!! There are only two freshmans in that class. Dude!!! It sucks where you are in a room full of sophmores, juniors, and seniors. Then again most of them think I'm a sophmore. (lol)

Anyways, nothing more to say. (lol) Love life is good. Writing is in progress. School is just plain boring and is jail house. (lol) Later everybody!!! *kisses*

~BonkChan~

Friday, March 02, 2007

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 14:07:26 GMT

Hey everybody!!!

Life sucks for me right now.

I haven't finished my journalism homework which is due today 3rd period!!!! I still don't get how to write the first paragraph for it since it has to have twelve paragraphs total!!! Also, we have to read them in class AND the school adminstration will be poppin by in my class maybe. Yippie!! -_- NOT!!! Plus reading the paper out today is worth more points then the last deadlines for the other things!!! >< This journalism thing sucks monkey butts!!! -_- My friend doesn't even get what to do either. -_- I just hope I don't get called on today because I'll be screwed if he does!!!

English, I haven't finished my reading worksheet for his class, but I'll end up copying my friends and she'll end up copying something for me. I just hope she finished the reading. >.< I was tired and fell asleep reading the stupid story. -_- It was stupid and I didn't like it. Well it was boring let's just say that.

My family is just weird. I got yelled at yesterday for no reason by my sister thinking I could carry a box, board, paints, paper, and a book all by myself. I did that before, but I struggled and almost dropped everything. So, I got yelled at for that. -_- Isn't that just peachy? Not really, but yeah. -_-

Yesterday was my 1month anniversary with my boyfriend, but I didn't get to talk to him at all. Instead I'm left talking to his best friend that likes me, but I seriously don't like him!!! He is well...not my type as I should say. I don't like who gossip, is perverted, and is sort of conceited about themselves. Not the type of guy I would go out with really. First boyfriend was a trouble maker. The one I'm dating now is a prankster and a lazybutt. I did like a guy a whole lot and he was nice and sweet. ^^ But he turned me down, so whatever. I don't talk to him that often anymore since he is busy and I moved on with my life. I talked to him yesterday, but not much.

Anyways I got to go!!! School time!!! I wish I was sick. *cries*

~Aki~